Doing my Best

I want to talk about how well my speaking's have been going. I spoke yesterday at College of the Canyons which went extremely well. I just feel that my speaking is going to another level. Next week I have Cal State LA Monday, Tuesday Valencia High School and Wednesday Van Nuys High School which will be an amazing week for me. These teachers are giving me opportunities to come speak and I have to be thankful that I am getting these opportunities.  When I speak its not about me, its about changing someone's life in the classroom or multiple lives. I want to make a difference and yes the students are telling me I am which is simply amazing and I am so grateful that I could potentially change a person' s life in less than 45 minutes. I mention this in previous blogs, but I want to be a national speaker, I want to speak in every state in every school possible.

   This Drunk Driving Car Crash changed my life forever I am not the same person I was 12 months, there is a quote I found it says "The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not 'get over' the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again, but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same, nor would you want to".  I am starting to believe in this quote, but its so early to tell how to live without my sister, I never thought this would happen to me. My life was content when my sister was alive and now life does not make sense at all. I am slowly trying to rebuild myself, but then its so early I am taking the most littlest baby steps I can take to help me. Then again time does not heal all wounds it does not, I feel like you will always feel pain.  I say this all the time, but my sister dying still has not hit me yet, I do not know when that day will come, but I am ready for it.

     I am going to make a difference as much as I can and will always will be. Ellie DeGeneres said "Contribute to the world. Help People. Help one person. Help someone cross the street today. Help someone who is trying to help you. Just help. Make an Impact. Show someone you care".